Haven’t you notice that you can reckon things perfectly when reading your novel than studying your lessons?
It’s all about…’interests’. We readers are totally obsessed on reading our novel books. We can’t wait to share about the book we just read and can’t stop the beat of amazements. We heartily understand each chapters from the beginning ’till the end. Some readers are shaking to chat with friends-online and share some thoughts about books. Cellphones starts on ringing for new messages from friends and buzzes cellphones to answer. Some are getting ready to click ‘new post‘ and start typing. Most never thought of this before like I am right now. I can’t stop giggling and shriek at my friend (gosh I should get used to it) about the funny part, the middle, and even the saddest part(ending).But you see, every new story is a new queer to be like. A queer feeling that you didn’t know it was the craziest but extraordinary queer to feel.
When I am not yet in love with books… I used to have a crush on it. I want to brim my shelf with books. I read them when I have time and when I’m bored. I had to improve my skill (as-if-I-have-one), then suddenly I fell! from its trap. It’s not just an ordinary trap. It’s deep-deep one. before – it was still on the tip of my fingers but now it touch my heart and soul!. So I like it… NO!! I didn’t like it – I LOVE IT!!. everyday I can’t stop thinking for the next thing to happen when I scan some more pages. Every single click of my clock it reminds me of them.. To buy one, to hold one, and to read one. Every night I creep out of my bed to get a flashlight toward my book. I didn’t care of what will happen to my adorable eyes. I read them as long as I can. Now… I have this blurring vision that leads me to trouble between me and mom. But that’s not the point. The point is LOVING BOOKS IS ALL WHAT IT TAKES then I’ll read and read and read then I’ll read and read and…(no need to continue). I don’t know if you have the same thought to utter like mine, but I know there is one thing that I can say – “It is how people do even if it is a hideous thing to look and a stupid thing to think but it is how people do with their obsession”
Studying my lessons is not that much. What takes me to undergo was to be faithful with my grades. I disappoint my self a lot and I don’t want that to happen again. I don’t want to regret things that I have already done that I know I can’t change what was already done. I take courage to go forth with my grades and to excel my knowledge. That’s the problem of me, I didn’t understand it but instead read it and bear it in mind as long as I need it. It’s wrong I know. Sometimes we can’t push ourselves to do things that we don’t like to. I have no interest with my social studies (sorry..). I just hate histories of other countries which is I am have nothing to do with it and the history of my country ’cause it’s totally boring. I admit it – I’m bored with this subject . I am not that good and have no such interests for science, maybe a little but not much. Honestly, I’m in chaos when our ‘sensei’ starts on discussing about the different part of… and the different kinds of… the circulation of… the cycle of….nature, animals, sun, moon and etc.Math is better ’cause I don’t have to memorize numbers to answer math. I just have to solve it and it’s all solution-thingy so it’s not a total chaos but maybe formulas and so whatever is a bit of bashful, but that’s not the case anyway. There’s no need to share the rest of my subjects interest.
I always wanted to ask my friend about this but I’m afraid they’ll think I’m really is a queer and I’d tried to tell mom about it too but my expectations is all down. Her answer isn’t the right words I wanted to hear. I’m just so curious about this
Do you feel the same way too??
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